My Meaningful valentine day

Since two year i was thinking how to celebrate it,

Last year it was bloody valentine for me,

Before last year, this day was stranger to me,

Now when I know all about it,

I do need any1 to celebrate it,

Because Arrange........ is better than Love....

Bye Bye Valentine day and its exploitation,

Exploitation by Money,honey,emotions,

Thankx I SAVED,

13 May

I got succeeded ,

Finally I moved on, 

Finally got the rose out of thorn, 

After your birthday, 

I will be the King of my Heaven ,My Queen, 

alas you had tried to ruined, 

I just randomly came to my blog, nothing in mind but still everything in mind,

i remembered all the past, i just want to bounce back from here very fast, 

This blog make me remember the blood 

Blood which  I had in My eyes,

Dead Angel turning to Rising Angel

Hi people,


You must be aware of my suffering in last few months, 


A girl who gives u name of  an Angel,although it was not reality but she was insisting a lot that it is a big reality,she feels that U came from God to console her,to make her smile , to make her laugh,to give her strength for her life the tense which she was suffering, u did as per her expectation, u spent beautiful moments together.Though The distance of their physical living was a far around 1200 km, but they were living in heart-even within the heart bit. it goes almost one year,Angel crossed the distance of 1200 kms 5 times for her,


But last time it was came again as a big failure when she said that u love me and I also love u but I cant do any commitment, can u imagine these are the words of that girl who used to call me an angel,


Finally Angel becomes Dead Angel bcz this compliment is of no use. he suffered a lot,his job, business,family,finance,his colleague,his social activism everything.


But How much shud I suffered? for whole life ? seeing that she is happy with someone else? or seeing that she got left again by a guy bcz of whom she left You,? offcourse Not. 


No Matter she returns,repents but can u believe on her when she betrayed U not once even 4 time  in a year,but u forgave her thinking she wud improved now,she wud be honest now but no she has something else in her heart always, I made mistake to understand her heart.Now again she came saying she loves but she cant do any commitment and "ohh Angel be with me I dont wannn loose u",


Friends what U think is she honest again?  No if she cant do commitment so no matter of going back with her,


So I decided to not to indulge in Love again not with her not with some1 else,I am concentrating on my life now,my business,my family,my freinds,my social activism and my Goal of life which I had lost in last 4 month,


I got up now, I realised now, That how wrong I was? Now I am still angel(def. with her) I still posses those qualities on the basis of which u gave me this name, But not Angel,not even dead angel to whom u buried in last 4 month but I am angel who is rising again, coming again into life, I changed my profile picture which was an angel with blooded wings it is changed now, I changed my profile name from Dead angel to Rising angel, my last poem is the indication of  a new shift in my life.

Pray for me that I could live happily again-although its a tough decision of my life, But I should  wake up, its a right time. as I am just 24.


Thnx for some people who knows this reality, they helped me lot to understand my self,they helped me a lot to realised the concept of rising angel. 


From now u will see change in my blog and in my writing


MR.saras as u suggested u want this talent shud be use for contstructive and to be use for positivity - Yes I m trying now as my best. bye tc. love u all.

I wann fly again yah yah yah I wann fly again

I wann cry again no no let me try again

I wann cry again no no let me try again

Days n months are flying ,they only keep me ruining

But I wann fly again yah yah I wann fly again

O ya I wann fly again yah yah I wann fly again

No matter what happened in past, no matter what i encountered last

But I wann try again yah yah I wann try again

 O ya I wann try again yah yah I wann try again.

I want to be famous for what I was ,people used to adore my smile , my class ,

Hey I wann shy again yah yah I wann shy again

O ya I wann shy again yah yah I wann shy again

You are already dead in my past ,  am moving ahead and fast

  

I wann say You bye again yah yah I wann say you bye again

 O yah I wann say u bye again yah yah I wann say you bye again,

Teri bewafai ka

 Teri Bewafai ka

Awarah ghumta raha galiyo me teri

kuch na raha pata teri bewafai ka

Bas chahat thhi k mile tujh se

hosh bhi na raha teri bewafai ka

Socha k qudrat bhi haseen sapne dikhati he

woh Lamha bhi yaad na raha teri bewafai ka

Awarah ghumta raha galiyo me teri

kuch na raha pata teri bewafai ka

Gam bhi saath dhoop bhi aur niddhal me

kin cheezo se karu shukr ada teri bewafai ka

Ek tamanna liye khada thha tere dar par

diid ho ishq ki Lamha mit jaae teri bewafai ka

Awarah ghumta raha galiyo me teri

kuch na raha pata teri bewafai ka

Sharm bhi aati  Ankhe bhi roti he

qissa jab karo bayan teri bewafai ka

Ae khuda is jurm ki saza na de usse

meri jaan ki qeemat laga de usse

kya hua gar woh wafa na karsaki

shukr ho qissa jo ho baya teri bewafai ka

Awarah ghumta raha galiyo me teri

kuch na raha pata teri bewafai ka

Dhadkne hui tez na milpaaoga hua jab ehsas

Laga dil rone aankhe bhi aayi iske paas

Kaha aankhone me hu tere saath

kya hua rakh na saki woh tere hatho pe hath

Dil betha rehgaya  aankho ne bhi diya sath 

us pe sitam yeh, pata jab chala teri bewafai ka

Awarah ghumta raha galiyo me teri

kuch na raha pata teri bewafai ka

Ab naa aaoga kabhi galiyo me teri,

ab manana he dil ko galtiyo se teri

Ab naa rehna yaado me teri,

lut hi gaya thha baato me teri

Ae-Khuda bacha is sitam se

na de saza usse is jurm se

Yeh dua he meri ke too rahe shaad

bewafai se kar apni duniya aabad

Me na karuga ab bayan qissa yeh bewafai ka

Na karuga Maatam tujh se judai ka

Awarah ghumta raha galiyo me teri

kuch na raha pata teri bewafai ka

Urdu Dictionery:

Shaad                -   Happiness,

Deed ho ishq ki  -   To see my love

 Nidhal               -   Tired a lot

Nothing to say

These were some moments........

When I hugged u first time I was at heaven

Unsaid Emotions

                                                                      Complete surrender

Was I the GAME which u played with me....